Let's introduce some new people.

We got three new people and I'm gonna let two of them tell their stories and the last one I'll have to explain

First up... Let's talk about our recently mentioned Toby.

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Hiya... I'm Toby... My... Er... My parents died... About 4 days ago... I don't know what's going on. The people here are scary. They want to erase everything. They won't let me leave. Help me.

Okay the scary guy in the mask is saying if I don't explain more he's gonna start cutting off my fingers... Um... Okay... Well I don't know why my parents were killed or who did it, but some people showed up at my house and shot my parents. I hid and the people couldn't find me. They found me, but didn't see me and just left. Then this woman shows up and tells me she's gonna help me... But then she killed a guy and now I'm stuck here with crazy people. I'd really like this not to be happening...

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Too bad... Also The Children are still living up to their title. I and The Facet... Assumedly? Are the only members older than 25. Sandy is 22, Ryan is 19, Toby is 14, Tiffany or Tiff as she apparently prefers is 15 and the newest one is 8.

So, anyway Tiff is one of the only people I like here so far and I'll let her explain why.

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My name is Tiffany, but as Sergei stated I prefer Tiff. According to the guy trying way too hard to be "Classy" I'm supposed to tell you my life story, but Sergei seems to only really want me to tell you guys one thing. I killed my parents. It was fun. I had a reason to do it. They were terrible people. Not to me I mean... They spoiled me actually, but they also kidnapped and murdered people for their "god". So, I did the same to them. The idea of erasing everything seems like a blast and it does seem like I'll get to "Erase" people in the more conventional sense before hand which is fun. I've only killed my parents, but I look forward to the opportunity to kill more people who deserve it. After all my parents taught me quite a bit and enjoyment of murder was one thing they... May not have intended to teach me, but I definitely learned.

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 Lastly we have... Sammy. He is the aforementioned 8 year old. He's... seemingly catatonic. From what I understand though he was in a hospital being kept alive and for some reason we were told to go get him before they decided keeping him alive wasn't worth it any longer... We... Er don't actually have the facilities to keep him alive here, so I'm unclear what the point of taking him out of the hospital was... He'll probably be dead in a short time. I mean Coda must have some reason for wanting him "saved" and brought here.

Coda, however has shown no interest in answering any further questions. So, yeah. Tiff is like The daughter... I actually did have, but this one doesn't hate me and has not yet tried to kill me. She also seems to really like me... Not often I've had people like me.

Updates

So... Not much has happened. We got a few new people now. I'll have them post up their info soon and hopefully they'll be better than Ryan. As well I've been killing people. Which is always fun. The Archangel's Dogs are still looking for me and I've let them figure out my general area. They don't know exactly where we are, but by letting them know my general location I've made it so if I feel like killing someone I don't need to go very far. It's a pretty big area so they haven't been able to focus themselves in any one place meaning there are lots of stragglers and small groups I can take out at my leisure.

Oh and Sandy killed her first person today. Congratulations Sandy.

She was out on a collection mission and came back with the new guy. His name is Toby. Again he'll tell you about himself I'm sure, but anyway on the way back she ran into a Timberwolf who apparently knew she worked for me. He tried to attack her and Toby. The Facet had given her a weapon. An easily concealable knife. He actually provided weapons for everyone, but me since I got my own. Anyway she was attacked. The guy didn't know how to deal with the defense mechanism, but he wasn't going to stop trying. She managed to catch hold of him and tried to get him to back down, but being an Archangel cultist he obviously refused. Also now that she was physically holding him he knew at the very least where her hand was and he managed to get his own knife into her arm.

Apparently being stabbed in the arm was enough to make her panic, but instead of panicking and fleeing, she panicked and stabbed him about 3 times in the throat and then after he dropped ran back to our little home.

She doesn't seem as thrilled about her first kill as I am.

So, I might have done something stupid.

I was getting bored with management duty and I decided to go blow off some steam... So I went and slaughtered a church...

Now before anyone panics, as much as I would have no qualms about slaughtering a church of innocent god fearing civilians these were Archangel servants. Not the militant kind like my good buddy over at Halo Break, but more passive let's wait for The Archangel to claim us kind.I know that this probably didn't upset The Archangel at all really... Just made him stronger actually, but it made me feel better regardless... Unfortunately now The more militant side in the area is actively trying to find me and exact revenge. Not likely to happen, but it was still probably not the brightest idea to make an enemy while I'm still working on gathering new recruits.

So, no worries I'll be fine probably, but we might have to move once Sandy, Ryan and The Facet get back from their respective jobs.

Speaking of note to self... If I intend to fight The Archangel and The Convocation I should probably start gathering incendiary weaponry again...

God I hate using Fire Weapons... Fire makes me feel so... uncomfortable...

Ryan here

Name's Ryan. So, I'm part of this Children of Nothing Cult now. Which means I get magic powers and stuff! It's pretty awesome... I mean a couple of days ago the only thing I had to look forward to was getting shot dead, but now I've got magical powers.

Too bad the boss won't let me have a cool nickname... I mean he gets to be called The faceless Bastard and the other guy gets to be called The Facet, but I don't get a nickname? Although I guess the girl is just called Sandy apparently...

Whatever even without a cool name this is still awesome... I was told I should talk about myself... Specifically why I want to have the world be erased... Well... Er I don't really... I mean I don't mind... Don't really care one way in the other, but it was either that or death... see... I kind of maybe sort of dealt drugs... and I might have sort of... sold not so real drugs? Like there'd be a bit of the real thing in there, but also lots of cheap shit so I could sell more of the stuff... It was pretty sweet. I'd sell like a bag full of like a quarter of cocaine and like 3 quarters sugar and make a ton of money, but um people don't like that. See they don't like being ripped off and normally I'd get the fuck out after making a sale, but... Er apparently one of my buyers this time was a big shot of sorts and he caught me trying to leave town. He was gonna have me killed, but The cult guys or I guess the god of the cult he protected me. No one could see me and I was able to get out of the guys place somehow... I don't quite know how... I didn't know the way out, but I like ran and I think I got pulled into a mirror or something and then emerged back at my house where Sandy found me and then she brought me to this place.

I owe these guys my life and I never much liked this world anyway so who cares what they're gonna do with it.

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Okay... So that was Ryan... The World's dumbest Drug Dealer... Alright Coda why the fuck did we need this guy?

I mean the original Children had a couple of losers, but at least most of them weren't complete screw ups and we get Sandy and this guy? This is to punish me isn't it? For killing the original Children right?

Whatever... Next person better be good...

What am I even doing with my life now?

Okay... I slept a bit longer than I intended to, but at least my injuries are healing nicely...

I may have slept almost a whole day...  Possibly a whole day... Stuff happened while I was asleep though.

For one thing Sandy returned with a new recruit... His name is Ryan... The moment he found out he was being essentially conscripted into a supernatural cult, however he wanted to be called Shadow... We're calling him Ryan. I mean technically I suppose he should be called 2, but fuck that shit...

I'll probably get him to write up a post or something... The Facet still has access to the Children's Blog, but I don't really want to use it so, I guess unless I want to figure out his deal and write it down myself, I'll have to let someone else post on my precious blog...

More importantly...

I talked to the voice in my head and got some answers... Kind of...

So, when I questioned the voice speaking to me about who it was, it ignored me at first and so I told it I know it's not The Quiet and that this is all some kind of scam at which point it responded.

"It's no scam... We are not the Quiet, but nothing we have said is untrue... We seek as well the coming of The Quiet and are doing what we can to bring forth it's arrival. The only falsehood has been our identity and perhaps we could tell you... We are The Choir, but not..." they answered.

"What does that mean?"

"The Choir is... Almost like a hivemind, like EAT or The Convocation, but not... We are more like The Dying Man... Part of one entity, but separated. Many minds making up one mass and mostly working together to achieve our goals, occasionally, however there is strife... We are a Rogue Choir Mind... Imagine if part of your conscious mind just suddenly decided to think it's own thoughts. That is what we are... If you wish to refer to us specifically... You may call us Coda. We feel that would be appropriate,"

"I don't know what that is so I'll just take you at your word... So, next question why?"

"Sorry?"

"Why do you want The Quiet to end this universe?"

"Because we are bored with it. This universe bores us and we wish it to end. We will remain and end with it and we will be alleviated of our boredom," it answered.

"Oh well... That's a reason I suppose,"

"Of course as you undoubtedly already know we are not the entirety of The Children's Benefactors... There are two others who work with us. We provide the illusions and the messages, the others provide the knowledge and the protections that keep The Children safe and working. Though you yourself succeeded in circumventing our protection once,"

"Oh right that's a good point... Why the hell did you want me dead? If you're the one giving the orders then you were the one who ordered my 'erasure'"

"We... Regret that-"

"-Because it turned out bad?"

"Yes, we figured you for a threat... That eventually your masters would send you after us either way so we sought to eliminate you first... It was a poor decision... We should have approached it more... Intelligently... Had we known what your daughter knew about your past we would have sent her and your son more diplomatically..."

"Probably still wouldn't have worked,"

"You are correct... They hated you and wanted you dead,"

"Not what I was thinking, but yeah that too..."

"Are you satisfied with our answers for now?"

"I suppose so... Although I would like to point out... We are not friends... We are allies, because I can't currently kill you, but you tried to have me killed and you bear responsibility for all that has happened to me since that decision, but luckily for you... I hate The Convocation and That pompous Archangel asshole even more. So, we're allies and I will help you bring the Quiet and end this worthless universe,"

"That is an acceptable arrangement," it said and then I woke up... That entire conversation having happened in a dream in which I thought I had already been awake. I'm fairly sure the conversation was real though... Probably... Anyway not much else to say and I need to go have a talk with The Facet about some things... Nothing important, just talk about future plans and stuff..."

The first day of the rest of my life...

So, still healing up...

I'm in charge of The Children now which means all three of us plus one guy who's imprisoned somewhere. Cool... That might change though. The "Vast Emptiness That Brings Peace" is still trying to talk to me so I suppose I might start listening to it... It seems to want me to get more people anyway... So... I'm not really able to move much at the moment, but I sent Sandy out to check on one of the recent names I was given, meanwhile I decided I should try to learn what I can about this organization... So, I had a conversation with The Facet.

"So, this voice that talks to me isn't The Quiet," I told him.

"I know. I'm a Fear I'm aware of things you humans aren't,"

"You know who it is then?"

"Who they are you mean?"

"There's more than one?"

"Well yes in one way and then yes in another way,"

"As your leader I order you to not give me that vague bullshit..."

"I was never much for following orders... But I will say this... The Vast Emptiness is a group of beings... One of whom is itself a group of beings,"

"Oh... Are They Fears?"

"Yes..."

"Which ones?"

"You should have figured that out by now. You tell me?"

"... I was thinking The Choir was involved somehow... I mean I thought about The Rake, but he only whispers to people when they are asleep... At least I think,"

"You are correct..."

"It is The Choir?"

"No I meant about The Rake only talking to people in their sleep,"

"Oh... But it is The Choir right? I mean voices in my head telling me what to do seems like them?"

"Yes it does..."

"You're not going to be helpful at all are you?"

"Maybe try asking them directly?"

"Alright I will..."

"Good. Let me know what you find out,"

"I'll do that..."

I have not done either thing yet... The voices are... kind of creepy and I'm not entirely sure I want to try talking back to them... Not just yet anyway.

Oh and of course even though I've accepted the role of Zero I'm not fucking calling myself zero that's fucking stupid. I'm still The Faceless Bastard... Anyway I'm still suffering a number of injuries and I think I'm gonna take a rest...

And all endings must involve things... Probably... Or I guess sometimes a lack of things... I blew the cool poetic title on the build up post and realized I didn't have anything for this one, bite me...

So, I went and checked out this intruder and found Zero waiting for me... I'm not stupid. I knew what was up the moment I saw her. I approached cautiously.

"Great timing. Showing up while I'm in a cemetary... You need something, Archangel?"

Zero shook her head and simply remained standing there. I wasn't entirely sure what it wanted, but it's presence was unnerving.

I didn't have much more time to think about it as Nathan arrived. He was wearing the mask again. That strange chef's hat mask.

It occurred to me that I recognized that mask... When I had worked for The Convocation there had been talk of a Fear Mercenary. A servant not to one Fear, but almost all of them. Doing jobs for each of them as some sort of arbiter and blessed with power from each of his patrons... This was him... The Fear Arbiter. Well... That explained a lot... It might even explain The Archangel's presence.

The stories said that The archangel had never approved of The Arbiter's existence... There was supposed to be some animosity there... Had The Archangel come to watch the fight? Surely he could have done that without making his presence known... Was he going to get involved? His help would be useful, but I hoped not. I wanted to settle this myself. I approached Nathan and pointed my Machete at him.  He had been staring at The Archangel, but turned his attention back to me.

"You ready to end this? You ready to die on the ground that sits above your sister's corpse?" I asked. Pissing people off was always one of my favourite parts of fighting, but it was arguably stupid here. I mean the guy was, as he said, as pissed off as he'd ever be and could already crush me like a bug, so trying to make him angrier, was probably really really stupid. Regardless it didn't work anyway.

"Yes," he simply responded and then glanced at The Archangel again, "Who is that? A friend of yours?" he asked. I was a little shocked. It was strange to me that he couldn't tell The Archangel, though I guess he didn't know about Zero... He wasn't one of the children... He was just related to one of their members. So, seeing Zero didn't mean anything to him. This revelation did not, however, at the time present any advantage, so I simply shrugged.

"No friend of mine," I responded and then charged at him. I swung my machete and he sidestepped, hesitating just slightly, as he glanced between where I assume my copy was and then where I was before grabbing my head, pulling me forward and slamming his knee into my gut. There was probably a knack to fighting with the copies that I hadn't quite figured out. I coughed and then he stepped aside and slammed my face into a gravestone. I'm fairly sure I lost a couple of teeth and my nose was bleeding... It hurt...

He released me as I crumpled to my knees. Maybe this wasn't such a great plan... I was beginning to regret... Pretty much everything...

I managed to lift my head. He was waiting for me. Just standing there. The fight wasn't over yet. I stood up, using the gravestone to support me. I raised my machete again and slurred out a taunt.

"I thought you were tough, but that was like being savaged by a pillow," I responded... Blood dripping from my mouth and nose... One eye probably starting to swell up... Yep Sergei... You definitely showed him...

I think my mind might have shut down a bit at this point as I only vaguely remember the next few clashes, but he definitely broke the fingers of my left hand... Luckily I'm right handed... and if he hadn't snapped my machete in half and tossed both halfs away at some other point in the fight that might have been useful...

The next thing I remember clearly... Well through a haze of pain and blood at least, was being tossed at a gravestone which fell over. He was coming at me and I in desperation grabbed the gravestone with my right hand and flung it towards him... Dislocating my shoulder and sending it a measly and inneffectual foot through the air... He stared at me with something close to pity, before continuing towards me. I forced my arm back in to its socket. I mean it's not like the extra pain was going to slow me down much at this point and I would definitely need at least one working arm if I was going to survive this.

I scrambled through the cemetary desperate to find a weapon. He was leisurely following me. It was at this point that the thought had occurred to me and I yelled back at him.

"It's still daytime! We could have been doing this by moonlight, you lack any sense of drama you fuck!" I yelled. Luckily there weren't many people in the cemetary... Or any at this point... Probably anyone who might have seen the fighting had fled. There might have been cops on the way... I don't know... Man I was and am really pissed that he didn't wait until the moonlight...

Anyway while I was focused on this I tripped and fell and felt something cut into my skin... It was the top half of my machete. I grabbed it, the blade cut into my hand, but I held it tightly. He was still approaching.

An idea formed and I waited, pretending to be tired and unable to continue. Which... Not that far off of the truth honestly.

When he got close enough, I suddenly sprang stabbing the machete blade into his knee. He let out a sound more of surprise than pain and kicked me hard in the ribs. I'm fairly sure some of them cracked... Shattered more like... however, as he kicked me all his weight fell on the leg with my machete in it and it crumpled under him. The blade mangling his knee as he fell and I grabbed it and yanked it out stabbing it into his gut and pulling upwards, he let out a hiss of pain and grabbed hold of me even as his guts began spilling out and pulled me forward. I don't know what he was planning, but I pulled the machete blade out of his chest and stabbed it into his throat and he stopped. His eyes stared at me and he opened his mouth, but no sound came out and then I heard footsteps and an all too familiar click from behind me. I dived out of the way instinctively, crashing against a gravestone as the shotgun blast went by me and took off most of Nathan's face. He crumpled to the ground and I turned to see The Archangel approaching, it was no longer wearing Zero, but was now wearing 4. Nathan's sister. It leveled the gun at me.

"What... The Fuck?" I asked far too tired and beaten to deal with The Archangel's shit.

"Well... Let's see if I can explain it in a way you'll understand. I wanted him dead and everyone wants you dead. So, I thought I'd let you two kill each other and then claim the winner. Is that simple enough for you?" it asked and I simply glared at it.

"Dick move..." I said and it simply pointed the gun at me as it's form changed into that of my daughter.

"Not joining me in hell like I asked wasn't very nice either. Mom, Harold and I are waiting for you," it responded and my eyes narrowed.

"Fuck you... Archie" I responded and it pulled the trigger, but I was gone. I didn't want to have to do it... I had promised myself I would not flee into this strange domain during the fight with Nathan, but technically The Fight with Nathan had ended by that point so I feel justified. I exited the domain again somewhere random and yet someone was waiting for me there and the place wasn't... random at all... It was my old house... The one that burned down and waiting for me there were Sandy and The Facet.

I'm dictating this to The Facet who is typing for me. We're not at my house anymore. I left my laptop at the graveyard so, I'm using a new laptop The Facet lifted for me.

I've made my decision. I will lead The Children of Nothing on one condition. We have to find some way to fuck over The Convocation and The Archangel then we can bring The Quiet or whatever... It's not like I give a shit what happens to this world now.

To all things an ending...

But this will not be mine.

I had come to a conclusion... Without help or hope I would stand up to Nathan... I would fight him and I would win.

There would be no tricks here as it seemed Nathan had already worked out the defense mechanism seemingly given what happened at O'briens, so I would have no protection here... Nothing, but my wits, my strength and my skill.

That's all I ever needed.

The question now was where should we have our grand final battle.

I found the perfect place. Apparently Nathan's sister had been buried as an unknown since she didn't have any identification, but being the one who killed her... with a little difficulty I could find where she had been buried... I figured killing her brother on her grave would be fitting. So, I reused an old trick... The same one I used to call out The Facet... I left a bunch of notes around for Nathan telling him where to find me... I'm waiting at the grave now... I doubt he'll take long to show up...

There's a full moon tonight... Not by choice, but that is just perfect. If it was me I'd wait until night to show up so we could fight by moonlight, but I don't know if he has the same flair for the dramatic. Guess we'll find out... I brought a shovel so if anyone questions my loitering around I just tell them I'm on break... I killed the real gravedigger already so no chance of getting caught out...

Someone is here... It feels... Wrong... I don't think it's Nathan, but it's not someone normal... I'm gonna go check it out...

Alright, alright alright alrightalrightalright

Okay, so taking stock... The Facet is still alive and has sent me a nice little message. Not the one you may have seen in the comments another one.

It was delivered via phone call. Apparently he assumed I'd be more willing to listen and not try to kill him if he wasn't physically there... He was partially right. I still hung up on him about four times before he managed to inform me, 1 is also still alive. That I never even really came close to wiping out the Children entirely.

Honestly it made a lot of sense and I am surprised I didn't think about it before...

The Archive weren't going to kill him. I mean they might have at one point, but as the probably very soon only remaining member of a new type of servant with strange abilities they weren't just going to throw that away no matter how much they hated him personally.

They instead locked him away to experiment on and learn what they could about The Children.

So, yeah I never really managed to kill 9 or 1. That's 2 failures out of 13 possible.

Still pretty good, but a farcry from my initial goal of 100% success rate. Now you might be thinking I could always just go kill him at the archive, but that's not very likely. The Archive are very very good at dealing with hostile servants and the only advantage I'd have now is the same defense mechanism I personally told them how to get around, so no... I may be good, but I don't think I could kill my way through the entire Archive to kill 1... He's safer there than almost anywhere else in the world and that pisses me off.

So, at current the number of surviving Children is 4... Oh right... That was another thing. Sandy is one of The Children of Nothing now apparently... At least according to 9 and I confirmed she has the defense mechanism... Apparently I unintentionally made her part of it...


So, yeah Myself, begrudgingly, Sandy accidentally, 9 and 1 are the current membership of The Children of Nothing.

Also, you might be wondering why after finding this out I did not immediately kill Sandy...

Well I can't... Not that I'm physically incapable, but I don't want too... I mean it's not some personal attachment to her or anything, but I feel comfortable having her here... She's a tether linking me back to the times when things were simple and I ruled a neighbourhood with an iron fist.

So, I can't kill her... Not until I've returned my life to that at least...

Anyway... The point is... My vow is now completely impossible to perform... I don't think killing The Facet will actually be possible. My one shot to do so already failed me and it won't work again. 1 is outside my reach, I don't want to kill Sandy just yet at least and I'm certainly not killing me... So, considering the impossibility and the continued threat of Nathan... Why don't I accept The Facet's proposal...

Honestly I've thought about it... A few times now... It's kind of a win win... I'd get rid of Nathan, I'd be in charge of something I could rule with an iron fist again and it would really really piss off The Convocation. I mean I haven't had much time to think about it, but I hate them... I hate everything about them. They ruined my life. I've been too busy to really think about my revenge, but I'm thinking about it now. Pissing off The Convocation is top of my list now.

Anyway sorry right... So given all those benefits, why wouldn't I accept the proposal...

Well there's one con that balances against all those pros and tips the scale in the cons favour...

 and here it is...

 FUCK THAT ARROGANT PRICK IN HIS SMUG FACE! I am The Faceless Bastard. It doesn't matter who the enemy is I don't need some smarmy fuck to help me out. I'll kill Nathan with my own hands and then... MAYBE! MAYBE we'll talk about the future of The Children of Nothing.

Got it?

Good...

A Facetinating... Facetnating? Eh either one... I forgot how I was going to end this title...

The Facet was waiting for me at the expected place. O'Briens of course. I showed up and he was there. I recognized him immediately this time. He was wearing a black hoody with a 9 on it and a copy of my face mask. I arrived and sat in front of him.

"So, you decided to talk after-" he started and then I tried to stab him. I failed... I failed because Nathan punched me in the side of the head hard enough to knock me out of my chair and send me skidding across the room. I don't know when he showed up or how or whether The Facet had planned that (That would be unlikely right?), regardless Nathan was here and he paid no attention to the Facet as he began to approach me cracking his knuckles. I got up grabbed some slender proxy who was sitting near me and tossed him towards Nathan who caught him by the neck with one hand snapped it and tossed him away. Which was what I was hoping for. His friends were not happy about this and they attacked Nathan. It didn't go well for them of course, because Nathan is a god damn walking murder machine, but the distraction was all I needed. I was heading to the exit as the fight started in earnest, but then Nathan grabbed the back of my head and yanked me back and then froze. The Facet was behind him. Elsewhere people were fighting each other and we'd become less interesting.

Nathan was standing frozen in place and then he spoke.

"He's fighting me... Doing a surprisingly good job of it too... Remarkable. Still I could kill him. Right now. I could end this. I just need one thing from you..."

It was The Facet speaking of course.

"All I want from you is to forget your vows. Assume the role you have been given. Recreate The Children of Nothing and lead us," he said.

It was a simple request and Nathan would be dealt with. Obviously I told him to go fuck himself and he nodded and then Nathan was reaching for me again as The Facet stepped back. I ran out the doors and continued running for some time. I ran until I was sure Nathan wasn't still chasing me. Which meant I was running until I physically collapsed unable to continue. He didn't show up and kill me, so I rested there on the sidewalk for a while. Random people walked by giving me weird looks and someone I think called the cops, but I'd recovered enough by then to crawl back to my new temporary residence...

Journey to The West

Is a movie I have never seen. Nor do I intend to. So, it's been a bit... I was traveling via plane, because I don't want to risk going through the domain again.

Who knows where I'd end up. I brought Sandy with me...

Anyway I'm back in Canada. Nothing else of interest has happened just yet, but I'm sure it will.

Meanwhile I figured I'd tell you about a few things.

Some of you out there reading this or printing it out putting it in a blender and then injecting the liquid result into your eyeballs might have a care for fine details.

So, allow me to fill you in on some fine details. First of all...

Sandy. How has she been reacting to things... The answer. Surprisingly well. I don't know what happened to her after she was removed from my care the first time, but whatever it was has acclimated her to the supernatural quite quickly. She barely seemed confused when one minute we were at her house then a terrible void and then Germany. She acted like it was something normal. Also again apparently she knows German now, so that might be part of it. She says she doesn't remember what happened to her. Hopefully The Facet can answer that question as well.

 Also The Facet. I didn't leave my normal angry comment in response to his so you might not know exactly how I felt upon seeing he's still alive. I'll give you a hint... It was the reason I didn't leave a comment.

The fact that bastard is still alive had me so angry I could not formalize a rational response and instead immediately just dragged Sandy to the airport to get a ticket back home... Unfortunately the only flight was the day after so I spent some time impotently seething. Speaking of... I'm not going back there to hear him out or anything. I'm going back there to kill him. I know what you're thinking as well...

Nathan is probably still there and he will find me again if I do this. Don't care The Facet has to die. I am going to kill him.

Lastly for anyone wondering about logistics such as how did I get on the internet in Germany. Where did I get money for plane tickets and how was I possibly able to get past airport security?

The answer to all three is people died and if you continue being a nitpicky jerk you'll be one of them.

Anyway back home. I'm fairly sure I know where I'll be able to find The Facet. I'll be going to see him as soon as I finish having a nice rest. Jetlag is a bitch. 

Conversations with Things that don't exist...

So, there is so far no sign of Nathan. Which is good. As I said I had things to think about. Mostly what I had to think about was what just happened. I've never seen a completely blank domain. I mean I don't believe that was The Quiet's domain, because and this is going to sound weird... It existed.

Like I don't think that place was as blank as it felt. I feel like I was being lied too... I think The creature just didn't want me to know what Domain I was in... So, it's one of the Fears potentially? A fear pretending to be The Quiet for... What purpose? I mean It's not usually a great idea to try and figure out the motives of The Fears, but... This feels like a puzzle and I really want to figure it out. I feel like it's important especially since whoever this is is now trying to get me to do things for them. I kind of want to know what fear I am serving even if I am serving rather unwillingly.

Also Sandy speaks german apparently... Which is... Strange... I mean it's not impossible she's learned german at some point, but I've always assumed she was just kind of an idiot and that doesn't jive with the idea of someone who knows a second language... I mean I know two languages, but that is because I lived in two different countries... I know for a fact Sandy was born in Canada and her parents aren't German...

... I didn't research her or anything... The Convocation gave me a dossier on her when I was told to watch her and I read it when I was bored... Actually I don't have it anymore to check, but I'm fairly sure it didn't mention anything about her learning German either...

I'm not sure why I'm focusing on this... Oh right I know why... I'm trying not to think about my big problems...

I still have no answer to what to do to Nathan. I have The Children's Defense now, but I managed to figure that out and I'm sure Nathan won't take long to figure it out either and then it's only a minor advantage and also I'm frankly not entirely sure I can kill him. I am quite legitimately worried that stabbing him in the throat might just make him angrier...

Even that isn't my real problem. With all of this I haven't had much time to think about it in the proper terms since, but I still have a vow that demands I kill myself.

I can't forget that even as other things keep distracting me.

All of these questions will need an answer... Well maybe not the Sandy thing, but all the others will need answers.

I don't yet have an answer for any of them...

The vast Emptiness that... Failed to hide me from this crazy motherfucker!

So, Nathan has found me. I knew he would, but not this fast. Especially not with the whole Quiet thing.

I guess even a godly being who can hide from other godly beings couldn't fucking hide me from Nathan. Seriously Nathan... What the hell are you?! How do you do these things?! Anyway...

I was out getting food for myself and Sandy and I get home and find Nathan just sitting outside Sandy's house on a lawn chair. He's got a can of soda and waves to me as he drinks it. I thought about just running, but I'm The Faceless Bastard... With a Face... Still! I do not run. I do not run from anyone!

So, I approached.

"S'up?" I asked.

"Not much. I see your injuries have healed. That's good. Should make this more fun," he said and I had to ask.

"You loved your sister right?"

"Of course," he answers.

"So... What's with the laid back attitude... I mean it's cool and all. Scares the hell out of me, but you're not just here to kill me on a job or something. This is personal? Why aren't you all angry and wrathful? How can you be so calm and... Professional?"

He leaned forward and placed the can down. "I loved my sister more than anything in the world. She grounded me. Kept me human. Even as the world around us became less and less human she kept me sane. Now she's dead and with her all emotion is gone too. I'm going to kill you and it is personal, but I'm not angry at you. You're nothing. I'm going to kill you because she wanted me to kill you. Once you are dead I'll kill others. I will kill everyone. I will kill until I die. You aren't something important. You are just the designated target of the monster you created when you killed her," he explained.

Well that's... Uncomfortably familiar in a way. I think I might actually kind of like this guy. You now if he wasn't so fucking terrifying.

I nodded. "Fair enough..." I said and then he suddenly tossed the can at my head... and missed. The can sailed past my head about 2 feet off target and he looked as surprised and confused as I did.

Regardless the fight was on. I didn't have my weapons didn't have the birds anymore. I was not about to fight this guy in hand to hand. I wasn't even really sure what my first move should be and then he tackled the air.

Again he sailed right past me and it occurred to me I knew what was going on. It was The Children's defense mechanism... He couldn't see me anymore. He was seeing a decoy. I took advantage of this and ran into the house. Didn't want to waste time unlocking the door so I simply threw myself through the front window. Luckily the windows weren't like reinforced or anything. I should have grabbed my weapons, instead I ran to the basement. I heard the front door break as I ran into the basement grabbed Sandy and a thought occurred to me as he appeared at the top of the stairs. I needed to get Sandy out of here and I realized... I'm a servant again... I have powers... Does The Vast Emptiness have a Domain... and then we vanished.

We floated in darkness and then we were lying in an alleyway in a town I would later learn was in Germany. Apparently I had travelled us across the ocean... It probably won't take Nathan long to track me down. I wouldn't be surprised if he showed up within the next few hours.

Although that trip gave me some things to think about... Hopefully I'll have some time to think before he shows up.

Back in Bl- Well mostly beige I guess... My outfits aren't very stylish.

I mean I got kind of a grey hoody on and like beige or tan cargo pants I guess... My mask is white... My hair is like a dirty blond... Really nothing about my outfit or appearance is black...

I'm getting off topic. So, I've been busy for the last little while. First I got caught up in some dumbass game of life and Death where I needed to use my wits to survive and I know what you're thinking... Yes I have wits.

But anyway that happened and you can find it all here: The Dying Game

after that I spent some more time just... Relaxing... Letting my injuries heal. Hiding because Nathan is undoubtedly still after me and I am really really not ready to fight that guy again... But anyway my wounds are healed, I've found a pretty safe place to hole up and nothing of interest has happened... OH WAIT NO RIGHT SOMETHING OF INCREDIBLE INTEREST HAS HAPPENED!

I found Sandy... Oh right and The Quiet is talking to me... Or I guess I should say The Vast Emptiness That Brings Peace or whatever that insistent phrase The Children used was.

Jack said it wasn't actually The Quiet, but I don't know what else it might be. Not yet anyway. I have some potential theories, but I can't really be sure just yet.

Anyway it's telling me that as the last remaining member of The Children I am de facto taking Zero's place as it's messenger. I told it it could go fuck itself. It didn't seem to hear me. It continues telling me to do things and telling me about people to go recruit. I'm ignoring it, however one of the people it mentioned was Sandy. It told me where she was so I went and found her. She was so happy to see me. She practically cried tears of joy. She is again a proud resident of my basement... Although I guess it's not my basement... This time it's actually hers. Apparently she got herself a little house and it's now my base of operations and I'm being nice and letting her stay here under our previous arrangements. The house is protected by "The Quiet" so, the birds won't find me here and I doubt Nathan will either, but who knows with that guy.

Why did I kidnap Sandy again? I don't really know.

Familiarity in troubling times I guess? Feels good to have her around again. Feels almost like I can just close my eyes and be back in my old house in my neighbourhood before everything got all complicated... Anyway I should go feed her... Bye for now.